There are few things in the world that I hold as dear as education. Education truly does have the ability to change the world, more specifically your life. I honestly do not understand those that do not value education. In America (for the most part) education is free. As a public school teacher my career and livelihood depends on education. I love to see learning take place. There are few things in the world that rivals when I guide a student into accomplishing what they once thought was impossible. It’s crazy for teachers to meet unrealistic goals in schools that are falling apart, underfunded, and overcrowded… yet somehow teacher do it. Imagine if we fully funded schools, cut back on the over regulating of school policoes, and gave teachers the opportunity to teach. Think of the things we could accomplish…
Since I’m now on summer vacation I’ve decided I want to try and blog a little more. I find blogging is cathartic for me. I have a hard time opening up and being vulnerable to people so this is my method of opening up (if only a small part). During the next month I’ll try and follow this list of blog topics.
I did get some awesome news today. I was selected to participate on a countywide committee to pick a basal social studies textbook! This is a HUGE deal! My name (as well as others) were submitted to the school board AND approved! It’s strange how one small change can start a domino effect of awesomeness.
So stay tuned for increased blogging from me, for at least this month.
Recently a teacher at my school died. And if that isn’t bad enough it was during child birth. How does one process that? In this day and age how does a young, healthy woman die while giving birth? She (Meg) was a first year Kindergarten teacher at my school. I didn’t know her well, but even then it’s hard to accept and process when a collegue dies. She was only 24 years old.
24. years. old. Barely alive long enough to truly live. She was newly married and was so excited to be expecting her first child.
I guess if there is any silver lining to the whole experience is that her son did survive. So now her husband and son, Oliver must now find a way to live without Meg. For the past week there has been a cloud over the school, an unspoken shared sadness the staff had together as we all tried to move on while remembering Meg and celebrating her life. It’s times like these that make us appreciate life and live each day to the fullest.
If you are interested in donating please visit this website: https://www.gofundme.com/olivermckee
It’s amazing to see how much life can change in just a year…
It’s hard to believe that it’s been almost a year since my last post. I’m sure there are a million reasons I could give for why I haven’t been here, but in all honesty I forgot I had started this blog! (I know you’re probably saying how in the world can you forget!) Life, it seems got in the way.
I’m happy to say that since my last post there has been 1 BIG change! I’ve recently accepted a teaching position at a different school for the upcoming school year! I can’t even begin to articulate the weight that has been lifted off my shoulders. It’s truly a breath of fresh air. I can breathe again without the added stress and tension weighing me down. It’s been such a nice change to look forward to work again instead of dreading it with every fiber of my being.
After accepting the new teaching position I was able to visit my new school for the day. While there I was able to meet (most) of my new team members, get a tour of the school, and sit in on a team CLT meeting. It will be different moving from a Title 1 school where 65% of the students are on free and reduced lunch to a school where all students from 2nd- 6th grade have a laptop available for them to use (1:1). That’s almost unheard of at any schools in the area. It will also be a big shift for me to be able to teach advanced academic program students (AAP). It is super exciting, as well as slightly terrifying for me. So good things are on the horizon!
I admit it. I’m overwhelmed. I am drowning in work and don’t know how I will ever catch up. For the past 3 weeks I’ve been putting in 15 hour days and still am falling behind. How do you say enough is enough? How do you say STOP!
This year I’m a co-team leader (while the other team leader is out on maternity leave). Add to that being a technology team committee member, buddy teacher to 2 teachers, class blogger, etc. It never ends. The hardest part is I hate confrontation, disappointing, and saying no to people.
This year I’ve been trying to have a better balance between my work and personal life but have never seem to be able to pull it off. I can never find that balance between the two. When excelling in one, the other one is struggling. I don’t want either to suffer, but I can tell I’m lacking. I’m becoming more and more frustrated with my husband and with my students and I feel horribly guilty because it’s not their fault. It’s my own anger, frustration, exhaustion being aimed at the easiest targets.
Just keep swimming I guess…
It’s Sunday night and I am sitting here working on lesson plans. It’s hard to believe the summer flew bye so quickly. I often have a LOVE/HATE relationship with Sundays. I love the weekends, but Sunday night you always know in the back of your mind what is coming tomorrow… Monday. Ugh. Mondays are tough. It’s hard to get back into the swing of things. But I guess the sooner your start the week the sooner another weekend comes up!
I can’t believe that this year will be my 10th year teaching?! I still remember getting the call with the job offer ten years ago. I was beyond excited, yet terrified. I was entering MY OWN classroom with my OWN students. God Bless my first class… they learned a lot with me, and hopefully from me. I’ll never forget that on my first day of school (as a teacher) I wrote up and sent a kid to the principal. (This is of course after he locked himself in the classroom bathroom and proceeded to knock on the adjoining wall yelling, “HELP ME!”) That wouldn’t be his last time to the principal’s office that year… as hard as it was that year I think I learned more about classroom management and keeping my cool when dealing with bad behavior in that year that I ever did sitting in my college classes. Trial by fire. Probably the best compliment I received at the end of my first year was when the principal was announcing and recognizing all the first year teachers a lot of my colleagues told me they had NO idea I was a first year teacher.
Through all the bad, and the frustrating moments I wouldn’t ever want to be anything else. I LOVE teaching. I love watching learning happening. It’s so much fun to watch the moment when a student “gets” it. Every small victories my students make I celebrate with them. I don’t know how long I’ll be a teacher, but for now it seems to be working.
So, I heard back from the school I interviewed at on Wednesday. As expected I didn’t get the job. Even though I expected it, it’s still somewhat of a letdown. No one enjoys being rejected. Although I did get a little boost because I heard back from another school and have an interview set up with them next Thursday. So we’ll see. I’m being cautiously optimistic.