It’s a new year… and as many are doing I suppose it’s time for my new year resolutions? I’m not one for making resolutions, because inevitably I end up breaking them, and then feel like a failure. So, instead here are things that I want to focus on this year.
1. I want to be healthier. Does that mean I want to lose weight, yes. Ultimately that is the goal. But am I fixated on a number, no. I want to get control of this part of my life. I admit I’m an emotional eater. Days when I’m frustrated or angry I usually turn to a salty or sweet snack to curb the feelings. Is it healthy, no. But I’m working on it. I begrudgingly signed up for a diet that a lot of my coworkers have had success on. They’ve lost between 50 -100 lbs in a year or less. You can’t really argue with those kid of results. The thing I’ve learned since starting the diet is that my willpower is lacking. I will have a great few days of eating great, making progress and in the end I break down and have a handful of chips, or candy. As hard as it’s been I’m seeing results already though. I’m one where most of my weight is centered around my belly – and since starting the diet (even with my few times I cheated on the diet) am seeing my stomach shrinking. I am actually getting the ghost inking of stomach definition. So, pretty much I need to commit for a few months, no cheating, to see what results I can get. Also, so I’m not wasting money.
2. I want to feel happy again. I admit that I’m in a rut, and I don’t like feeling this way. I want to be excited about going to work. I want to love life. And at the moment I feel none of this. I hate my job. I hate feeling blah. I just feel numb. I don’t know if I’m cut out for 10 (or more) years as a teacher. I just don’t know what I would do instead of teach though. That’s all that I’ve ever known, and it’s something that has always come easy, natural even.