A lot has happened in the past few months.
- I moved out of the townhouse.
- We put the house on the market
- Had 12 offers and after some consideration accepted an offer after the house was on the market for less than 24 hours.
- I’m in the process of filing for divorce.
With all the change happening it often feels like a whirlwind.
At times when I stop and reflect I think… This isn’t supposed to be what my life is at this point of my life. Shouldn’t I be settled down with a family enjoying life? And yet I’m soon to be single again and to be honest it terrifies me. I’ve never been one to “need” a man, but appreciated having one by my side. To have that absence is hard at times, after getting used to that feeling. But as I tell myself there is nothing wrong with being single. If I’m meant to be with someone it will happen. Why spend time and effort on something out of my control. I was tired of pretending that everything was ok, when really it wasn’t. I was tired of living in a loveless marriage thinking that was what I deserved.
So yes change is scary, terrifying even… but what’s scarier than that? Regret. I never want to look back on my life and think I wasted it.
Let me be the first to say I LOVE the holidays! Seeing the lights, feeling the cold/crisp air, the anticipation and general sense of goodwill towards others… what’s not to like?
All the being said this year Christmas feels different. I hate to say it but it feels like we’re just going through the motions. Our tree is up, but not decorated. The gifts are bought, but not wrapped. Instead of anticipation of Christmas it just depresses me.
I think more than anything I know what the new year will bring… whether I’m ready for it or not.
Change is coming…
It’s amazing to see how much life can change in just a year…
It’s hard to believe that it’s been almost a year since my last post. I’m sure there are a million reasons I could give for why I haven’t been here, but in all honesty I forgot I had started this blog! (I know you’re probably saying how in the world can you forget!) Life, it seems got in the way.
I’m happy to say that since my last post there has been 1 BIG change! I’ve recently accepted a teaching position at a different school for the upcoming school year! I can’t even begin to articulate the weight that has been lifted off my shoulders. It’s truly a breath of fresh air. I can breathe again without the added stress and tension weighing me down. It’s been such a nice change to look forward to work again instead of dreading it with every fiber of my being.
After accepting the new teaching position I was able to visit my new school for the day. While there I was able to meet (most) of my new team members, get a tour of the school, and sit in on a team CLT meeting. It will be different moving from a Title 1 school where 65% of the students are on free and reduced lunch to a school where all students from 2nd- 6th grade have a laptop available for them to use (1:1). That’s almost unheard of at any schools in the area. It will also be a big shift for me to be able to teach advanced academic program students (AAP). It is super exciting, as well as slightly terrifying for me. So good things are on the horizon!