Change… 

A lot has happened in the past few months.

  • I moved out of the townhouse.  
  • We put the house on the market
  • Had 12 offers and after some consideration accepted an offer after the house was on the market for less than 24 hours.
  • I’m in the process of filing for divorce.

With all the change happening it often feels like a whirlwind. 

At times when I stop and reflect I think… This isn’t supposed to be what my life is at this point of my life. Shouldn’t I be settled down with a family enjoying life? And yet I’m soon to be single again and to be honest it terrifies me. I’ve never been one to “need” a man, but appreciated having one by my side. To have that absence is hard at times, after getting used to that feeling.  But as I tell myself there is nothing wrong with being single. If I’m meant to be with someone it will happen. Why spend time and effort on something out of my control.  I was tired of pretending that everything was ok, when really it wasn’t. I was tired of living in a loveless marriage thinking that was what I deserved. 

So yes change is scary, terrifying even… but what’s scarier than that? Regret. I never want to look back on my life and think I wasted it. 

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